do I have a permission to go to....aaaaw...well walk, or do anything?

bin kere konusmayin dedim anlamadiniz, sozumu dinleyin biraz...lol...konusursan olacagi budur.

dis goruntu cok onemlidir, ;)...her zaman normal goruneceksin...gorunmuyorsan ehm..hahah


bir kelimeyi hic unutamiyorum lol....'d' ile basliyor..;) neyse simdi

bu arada hala 'main vein' miyim ? insaf kac ay oldu..;)

....kapitalist oyunu ..cent icin arkadasini satmak ancak emperyalizim dengesidir hem de kilise platformunda olmasi daha ilginc..

i am proud... i dont need bugs to prank people...;)..such as everybody ...;)

main focus continuum
typical threaded commentary
 i am hoping you all will wake up one day
and continue to your lives...same as usual..
relax and enjoy the rest of your day..

you are lucky i am tipping you off ...
no one tipped me off when it first happened to me few years back...

bundan sonra boyle
siz bana servis yapacaksiniz!



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teknolojide bir lisan gibidir
dilinden anladigim icin belki milletin isini bozdum
ama ne yapiyim, onurumuz var burada lol...
cocuklarla shen olunur, buyuklerle rezil
yuz yuze bakiyoruz, aptal degilim ben
insanda bir utanma duygusu olur, cocuk yaptiginda cocuktur dersin gecersin
buyuk yaparsa, deli midir  nedir? diye bir dusunursun
sonrada kacarsin
birbirimizi gormesek anlayacagim
ama ayni yerde...wow...hazmedilecek gibi degil..

zaten ben sizi ne yapiyim, hic eglenceli degilsiniz... kart horozlar

anliyorum is icabi filan...ama...bu kadarda olmaz ki....

 uzuntuden millet geri gelemiyor, anlamiyorum sanmayin...bende sogudum, degdi mi bu yapilan sabotajlara, sizde payinizi aldiniz.. ...neyse gececek diye umuyorum..
hersey zamandir...yarin oradayim mesela ;)

there is one thing in life that I can never forgive or digest...'bullying'...bullies PAY in my world...i rather lose everything over it..if you are a parent too you would understand what i am talking about..


now you see the difference, this is true work of art created by ONE person..and it is not disturbing as your work, i can assure you no one ends up in doctor's office with me..it is fun for me and for all, thats why i made this audience...and since they are afraid, they are harmless lol...might be a bit scary for you  as well but hey it is all up to you...cheers ..

planning a party when i hit to my 6th year on this channel lol..

epeyidir propaganda yapmamistim, oh iyi geldi ;)..kim uyandirdiysa eline saglik.


nasil ama lol...sonu yoktur bu isin,..isin raconudur  bu..her sey iyi kotu birbirini tamamlar, her sey herkese uyar...mutlaka bir yerden tutar...

i know you have been watching for years ;)...I am sorry, didnt work out...;) it is so much fun, how can i quit?

sessiz durun dedik dinlemediniz..;)

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i dedicate this post to people who inspired me with their true leading abilities  despite the pressure of common laws..you know who you are..dont change...



do not forget; there are no boundaries in creativity...some may call it 'crazy', some may call it artistic expression, i can assure you it is no different than your read and comfort...i have chosen a different path, we all ended up in the same environment didn't we? that matters to me...if i can get one visitor in a year that would make a big difference on getting the word out...so thank you if you are visiting and reading ..




Green change the color

We all know that

In the air, on the ground

Doesn’t matter

Put in all on a payroll

Now we are friends!!!!!

i truly appreciate the efforts of certain people
but of course we cannot solve  problems alone
since  there is the battling grounds of being the  minority forever
I should have known this from the beginning
i should have said NO
since there is not much of people around like us
such as, the fanatics of national blood and
 humanism
yes, believe or not it can both walk together...

we never felt much of a politician anyway
the moment we stepped into it, we longed back to who we really are
so we are it....get used to it...

Saturday- Butterfly effect

butterfly effect

We all have a different view on life

I live for moments like these, a proof that

I can push others into chaos

The grace of life… mind versus the time cycle

And get them  involved with instant  taste of creativity

I cannot imagine people missing the true purpose of life

Canning themselves into small spaces, day by day getting lost

Well there is life in that can as well

Glad I let them see it fully..

Unfortunately switching is only about inspiration…



there is no way to get through this issue with the gang...it is over....
not even acquaintanceship, i tried.....take my cents...and have fun ....you don't do this to a friend...
so i wasnt...

Persembe

Persembenin atesini kalkindirdi

Hic beklenmedik bir anda kendi bahtini acti

Severim dil farkliligini

Ne ediyim simdi, tesekkur mu?

 Yoksa bir meridyeni paralele baglayan bir aydinlik  mi?

Hani  hangi felsefeyle -hangi festiv komutlarda yasadigini merak ettim

Vurgun yemis bu kacinci Yemeni baglayis?

the filter is the approach, and the fine lines
that I would consider a sign of primal totem ...in piece...
thats the intel that I am looking for through construction of written word
surely the calamity gets the perfect gift out of this
the misery that outlines the misfit of perfection(or vice versa)
i never felt oriental before
i liked it....

somewhat insecure, but colorful enough for continuum...
sensing the mixture of a pair ...unfortunately...that even makes me more ....
......curious....

I cannot come back, I was dead in monstrous living

Finally I am alive in this tomb..

carsambayi yayinlamiyorum...bir yolunu bulursunuz okuyacak...

benim hatam cabalamakta oldu, klas catismasinin kurbani oldum
bin kerede soyleseler anlama kapasitemin altinda
ayni levellarda dusunmuyoruz
ucuz roman gibiler..

Tabiyatiyla karadir yasanmislikler

Boyle ard arda gelir pismanliklar

Calarsin birbirine , onlar gider Mersine

Sen gidersin tersine

dun Ardo bir sey dedi

Ilk defa bir sosyal konuda hak verdim ona

Cabalamadan birinci olmaya alismisiz biz

Nereye gitsek birinciyiz

Haliyle dislanmaktada.... ama bu defa kendi kendimize cekiliyoruz
bitti .....
elimden geleni yaptim..gozum arkada kalmayacak...

Erkanla evlenseydim ne olurdu diye dusunurum ara sira,

Malum Ramazanoglu bari en azindan sosyeteye girmis olurdum
sosyete yerine banalite..onunda kendine gore bir agirligi var

Salak kafam, nerden de patriotic olmam tuttu…?

See everything is photo shopped

Not much as it is hoped

Or dreamed

I weep 24/7

I am narcissistically into crying

And laughing

There is nothing in between…

Eh today is special

Crying suited the day…

How can you be synchronized with people ...if...

They are not even at your level emotionally..your thoughts are clinging onto

Post mortem ...theirs constantly accelerate on being alive
mostly  living like creature
out of life's sincere revengeful unfair bucket
matching the bridge of untidy soul

Whats use in that(life) if you don’t feel pain..

well there might be some use if you enjoy killing...

olmuyoru biliyormusun? o-l-m-u-y-o-r
keske bu kelime baska parcalara da bolunseydide daha iyi anltabilseydim, olmuyor
uyusmuyorum...banal geliyor...elimde degil...

yeni

Yok olmaz bu senenin kirilgan kisiligi

Ailenin yogun bagliligi , paranin gelisi

Merkezi unsurlar olmamiz

Gosterisli gosterissiz…kanimca

Bir cift akilli kafada yan gelip yatmamiz

Eh ne yaparsin, her guzelligin bir sevecen  tarafi da olur
sevgiyle baglantili sevecenlik da guzeldir, neden olmasin ki
kutuplar birlesir, yeniden baslanir
terkettim ben..rahat et, cocuksun daha
anlamazsin..verdigin aciyi..
herkesin bir noktada tattigi..
ben eglenirim, beni merak etme
4 parmagimda 4 marifet
bir seyler bulurum yapacak..

mid point with

I have never had a written word state of mind

Through daily closure

it has its own casualties

mostly something that I would consider an oriental junction

through mandatory beginnings

towards getting mature

especially if it is a thought that is mixed with mixed thoughts

zaman

Iste boyledir zaman 

Akar tuz gibi ince ince, hem beyaz hem gonulden

Ama limoni degildir dostum

Eksi hic degil, seker de degildir

Zamanin kendine ozgu aciklanamayan bir dengesi var

Sanki hatirlama yetenegini bize ceza olsun diye yamamislar gibi

Yamalama bir hatirlama yetenegi

Cumbur cemaat, ister bilge ol, ister kasif

Ister unlu ol ister kendin

Ayni iste…hep ayni

Iste boyledir zaman dostum, yaniltir guzelligiyle

Saklanir anilarin dikdortgen ve kesin rengiyle

Zaman budur iste, hic de goreceli degil bu gece

Dost var cercevemde…

good ones do not come up to surface often, so i treasure this one..

I cannot value the magic on my hands with anything else

It doesn’t do anything useful 

Other than taking a bit more space in the air

But you would  understand the desire 

 Catching up the reversal time that you create

 Your matador like smile makes my day

What would have happened I wonder if I had the gut

To come up to you and do the things that I would do best

I was much younger for God sake, our roads were apart

Once someone close to me talked about the shyness

And superiority

You know they both wouldn’t walk together well

Age, none the less mechanic  fortune of being a bit smarter than others

I am not like that, so I wouldn’t know

Anyway, well….Saturday has its limits…

Boyle salak gibi bekler dururum

Bekle bekle gun catar gece olur

Bilmecenin komigi eglenceli oluyor arkadasim

Bak, dostluktan arkadasliga geriledin

Olmaz boyle, olamaz bir kademede geriledin ya dostum

Genede bakarim karelerin bosluguna

Resimler gelir gecer, ruzgar

Dagitir gider

Sosyal kurallar dengeyi bozar

beklentiler kamcilar

agresivlik yasam standardi olur

Ama biz bozulmayiz arkadasim,

Karelerin icine saklanmis, gokyuzunu ellerde tutan

Birer kandasiz biz

Keyfime diyecek yok su gunlerde

Bilmem sen neler dusunursun?

Bos vaktin olmaz senin, hele o trafikte?

A bit satire but thin

Hate the thick ones 

Always had that in me, no one gets hurt

But me..

It is not the circular way to let the pain go

I cant do that, happiness doesn’t come cheap

such a traversal improv, not blasphemous

but maybe even something worse

just because,...just because

i am  laughing...

ne enteresandir golgelerin gucu
varla yok arasi, kiyaslamayan bir sevgi onlarinki
hele sonuncusu, su gibi akiyor geciyor
bileklerimden, ivediye
yazi ulasiyor ak uzerine
soylu yaa, sessiz, isi gucu, aile, ocak
yabanci ellerde olmustur bir kacak
bizim gibi hem isi gucu hem aile hem ocak bir de uzerine
 yazma kaygisi yok
daralmiyor dunya ona, o yuzden yazmiyor
ne yapar sizce yazma yerine? neyle hayatina yama yapar
piano mu calar?
tadilat mi yapar......

 sanslimisin sen dostum?
ruhun duymaz bilmezsin
mitoloji gibisin aslinda
varsin ama....hemde iyice varsin
gun gibi ortaya ciktin, gece gibi kompozisyon yazdirdin
kazandin sen dostum, ama kazandigini bilmezsin
belki kazanip hissettin sen dostum
hic kavga ettigini duymadim dostum, hatta utanirsin belki
bende bir resmin var...albumde durur...
hatirlamazsin sen dostum, beni bile hatirladigindan supheliydim
taa ki.....

dugmeye basincaya kadar...
kucuk detaylar hayatin kaderini degistirir
goren gorur, bilen bilir dostum
ve o yeter

iste sacma sapan
abuk subuk feysbuk

kotu siir de siirdir..unutma bunu dostum...

second one for today, continued in armenian (philosophic explanation on love's linguistic confusion)

ke gardses te poun kirerov bidi chgarenam ardahaydouil
Latinov krenk hayerene, inch gi pokhvi
gi hishem minchev aysor ; medz hayrs trqeren ge gartar Araberen kirerov
trqeren ge gartar Hayeren kirerov
hertsi inchbes ayt npadagin hasadz er minchev hima chem kider
chem al hartsutsatz,  anshushd Trqeren latin  kirerov dbaran chigar ir mangutyan
payts npadake kiri cher....ardahaydvogh kirn er...
ayn kiri vor misd sirov gi volorver
mi mornar ays oreri, kirov , ir poun nbadagov
payts manavant imasdutyan holovumov,
tapantsig siro kunavor echerov
miasnapar qachalerelov....

bugun

oksuz degildir   benim dostum
hem burjuvadir hemde oksuz degildir
her yandan sanslidir benim dostum
dosttur o, hem de ne dost
halden anlayan, sehir yuzu gormus ender bir vakadir o
insan hic konusmadan nasil anlasir
bendeki improv hem ona hem bana yeter
geldi geleli duramiyorum
bir seyler oldu, ilham ilhamliktan cikti
dostun ilhami oldurmuyor hem de Turkce yazdiriyor...
yaaa dostum
hayat boyle birseymis iste, zaman neler yasatiyor
neler sindiriyor...ama bazi seyler firara dagilip kacip kurtuluyor
goz gore gore utanmadan yazdiriyor...

Zorla guzellik olmaz demisler

Simdi dusmaNINIZIN lisanini cekin bakalim

Bundan sonra boyle…madem kendinizee guveniniz yok bana karsi

Ben uyandirmasini bilirim

Dinleyin bakalim simdi…

Hani oyle pis tipler vardir ya, sen oylesin

Ruhunun notrlugunu cekemez oldum artik

bir reaksiyon goster hayat askina 

Numeric rakamlarda da duygu vardir, hissettim ben …pek cok defa

Ama sen, helal olsun sana, al numaralarini otur
ye-ic doyasiya yasa..zenginligin tadini cikar..
ruhsuz adam...

dilini yutmus burjuva; dunkinden devam..yarina hazirlik

his

Bourgeois 

  design is familiar and surprisingly sympathetic to me
he has charismatic values in his tongueless voice
and i know so many are charmed by  his algorithmic necessities
deeper scratch to higher grounds
at least i did, and you know how hard it is to create this
from zero to royalty
well he has the

Bourgeoisie

- i have the royalty

once maybe few more times the most
thats how much i knew you face to face
before the poetic owe came with jaw dropping awe
it is a head turning stage and i must say it is jamming
not in a popular way but ah so nostalgic and old fashion
like Michelangelo says;  I saw the angel in the marble 
and carved until I set him free....you are free here ...on this paper

continued

Not so mandatory in manufacturing but

Rich in textile, I love wearing his designer clothes

And I am not even sure why I call his charitable events

As the celebration of life

There should be a reason for this, a clinical solution

Maybe a professional synchronization that I throw in the air

\something I do but cannot see

Denizdeki tuzun eksikligini hissetmemistim simdiye kadar

Bak gor iste, kendi kendine Turkce geldi bu sefer

Te,elden bozuguz biz, bu anlasilir fakat

Anlamsiz gibi gelir..kah satirlarda, kah ogluma verdigim pattiklerin

Kizima attigim sevgi bakislarinin icinde bir bir sayiyorum tuzun oranini

Hep bir heves hep bir bosluk

Kahve arasi …molada yakaris…ogleden sonra is

Bir gulumseme, iste budur denizdeki tuzun farki…mutluyum ben ya…

Bozma e mi hep gel boyle…..yazim ol....

You probably would know how this walks

Behind bars, as   prisoner’s birthday bash

Day by day with simple nuances that we select from past

You not only brought youth and nostalgia

You also brought calm wedges to my soul, creating

 A temple of melody friendly refined trade

I like how you use your socio-material IQ into my mid life crisis

I know you caught something from past, not from today

But past,…and I treasure that…

war

Times are changing for the goodness of false

Or falsehood’s good neighborhood…it is classic clear that

There will be no change of character any time soon

For crystal goodness of people

We all are the same, we all preach for war in the name of freedom

War is slavery…but again I don’t expect them to acknowledge that

It is not my duty to preach separation for their IQ levels, I am not a teacher

I say what I know of

This is our world and I am sealing on this paper…’I will never but never preach war’